There is
something to be said for the benefits of not stopping smoking. Most important
and relevant to me at the present time is the use of public transport in
London. After a wasted journey to HR, which upon arrival I discovered that my
proof of address was not appropriate, (argument for not pay all my bills
online) while taking the number 18 bus from Euston I notice the scent of one of
my fellow passengers. I suspected that he, I imagine it was a he, was sat
almost directly behind me. The smell was unlike the heavily applied cologne or
cooked food, or body odour that would usually get my goat and give me something
to gripe about, nor was it the all to frequent musk of flatulence which I
always feel is forgivable as when the shoe is on the other foot I feel a secret
sense of satisfaction after silently letting one rip in public. No this smell
was much worse. It was deeper and engrained in the fabric of his being. It was
the smell usually only associated with pound coins and mechanics, or even scrap
merchants. Ground in dirt. The smell of a tough days work. I knew without
looking that this was not the smell of hard graft. It was the smell of sleeping
on your mates sofa, putting on unwashed clothes, for rinsing your hair with
water until it starts to clean itself, of going to bed when the sun comes up, and
getting the bus home while everyone else is at work. I couldn’t help but think
that if I still smoked I wouldn’t be able to smell my fellow passenger or that
if he smoked he would certainly smell better. Focusing on the stench of muck
was turning my belly so I let my mind wonder on to other things. I remembered
an interesting fact: that an indicator of an individuals state of mental health
is their level of personal hygiene as this is one of the first things to go. I
felt bad for judging this person who I had still not turned around to see. I
wondered if I had ever smelled like that.
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